1) frisbee. yes, frisbee.=)) has been a frustration from time to time. i see my friends in this team and that, i get hmm. jealous? you could say that. curious. what did not make myself qualify to yknow, THAT stuff. and when can i ever be one original player of a team.
2) I AM TOO YOUNG. all the wrong things i've done, repeatedly or not, was brought about by curiosity, pressure, carelessness. i'm still in the process of growing. and i'll need a lot of that.
3) I AM VULNERABLE. all the rejections, betrayal, criticisms stab me deep inside. i go through stages of depression. and nobody could know. okay, a few do. but not as often as it really happens. nobody really knows. people don't realize that sometimes they're sitting next to a completely broken person. they never know.
4) growing up takes a lot of negotiation and compromise. with myself. maybe one thing i'll have to let go to move on to be THERE, is childhood. and part of it is YOU. i don't know but i'm good with not feeling the excitement anymore when i see your name pop up on my phone. and i like it that way. although i always miss you and i'll always be thinking about you cos you remind me of almost everything and i'm used to that, how things are right now is so much better. it may feel awkward, with the short talks, hi's and hello's, random eye contacts, but i know we're both happy with what and where we are now. however, whatever happens i won't let myself be outdated about stuff regarding you. i care cos i love you, always and forever as we've promised each other. geez.=)) but it ends there. no more other deeper meanings.
